Friday, June 21, 2013

#8: What I've Forgotten

I have to make an admission of guilt.  Having something linger over your head can keep you up at night, can make you physically ill and be a general heartbreak.  What I've done just kinda happened.  But lately it has snuck up on me and basically whacked me really hard. 

I think I am pretty good at making people who come into my store a priority.  It is a blessing every single day to see the most amazing women walk through my door.  I love learning about their lives - both happiness and struggles.  I especially love when I can give them an experience they will remember and make them realize that my store is a safe place of secrets and laughter. 

But what has happened to the others in my life?  I bet it looks like I have forgotten them.  But, I haven't.  Some days I don't even see my husband except for a few stolen minutes.  This morning he was still sleeping when I left to go workout and had already left for work when I returned.  I don't like that, so I stalked him at his office to get my good morning kiss. 

I think about them when I wake up early and the sun is peeking up.  I think about them when I pass the skate place, I think about them when I see Wheatfields.  Problem is, I don't know how to go back and make up for lost time.  Is it possible?  I'm not sure, but I hope not. 

I am guilty of not giving the gift of time and letting go too easy while letting the craziness get in the way.  It has taken a toll and I am afraid that the price I am and have paid is way too high. 

So, I am stealing a moment of time as I write this and am making it my #8 of my top one hundred...a mixture of giving someone your time and forgetting about all the other stuff that has to get done AND even when you can't physically be there, still "be there" and make sure they know. 

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